.:reflections of twilight:.

Hello everyone.

I hope everyone had a nice Christmas (or other Holiday if you so celebrate). Ours was very low-key. Not just financially, even though that did play somewhat of a factor. Mostly because December is a bit of a downer month here for us. My sister’s birthday is the 18th and the anniversary of her death is the 26th. So things are kind of subdued. Plus, mom misses spending holidays with my aunt and her family. I know that it’s important to her, but I told her that even though it’s just the two of us, it’s still family and we should be happy for that at least. That seemed to make her feel a little better.

I did get a few things, like a few Blu-Rays from my dad as well as a few knitting items. Yes, I plan to teach myself how to knit! I even joined Ravelry and my username on there is snapdragon1976 in case anyone want to go friend me! I got a couple of small Guardians of the Galaxy action figures from mom, which knowing how tight money is, was most appreciated and unexpected. I hope to be able to return the favor once I get my student loan.

Mom tells me that when I get my loan money and we can get the cars fixed (again), she’ll put more of a serious effort into finding work. I’d like to believe it, but a part of me doesn’t. She’s been out of work for over six months now and even though we need the money badly (my monthly annuity and her monthly Social Security isn’t enough), I think she’s gotten used to not working and being able to do things at her leisure. As well as I think there is a fair amount of discouragement she feels being in her 60’s and trying to find work.

I haven’t had much luck on the GA front myself. The one I applied for at the lab school at the University was a bust since I was told that the school is undergoing staffing changes and there won’t be a need for a GA there anymore.

I start my Remicade treatment for my Crohn’s back again on the 7th. I didn’t have a bad experience when I did it last time, but the human body being what it is and wanting to be fickle much of the time, it may decide to cause me grief. I mean, I know that due to the fact that it’s an immunosuppressant that I’ll be more prone to infections, but hopefully I won’t have stuff like massive hair loss and other major side effects. I tell you, having an invisible chronic illness sucks balls.

I may do a Year in Review post for January like I usually do, except for this past January, when I got over ambitious with it and never finished… Like I was going to do some excerpts from my journal over the past ten years since I’ve been on LJ for ten years. Maybe that’s one goal I can work on for 2015 as well as maintaining a more regulated sleep pattern instead of submitting to my night owl tendencies to stay up until 2:30-3:00 in the morning…

That’s all for now. Hopefully, I’ll be more diligent in my regular postings instead of once a month as I seem to be doing. Hopefully, I can discipline myself enough to do it.

This weekend was fairly uneventful... except for me smashing my toe. The tale is as follows:

Saturday afternoon I was fixing myself some lunch and I went to open the freezer door to fetch some ice to chill my drink. I was successful in getting said ice, but I had to shift a few things in order to get to the ice container. My mother often fixes herself a batch of vegetable soup and freezes it in microwavable containers to take in her lunch. One of these containers took it upon itself to commit suicide and fling itself out of the freezer. Unfortunately instead of landing on the floor with a satisfying crash, it landed on my left pinkie toe with a not so satisfying crunch. If I were the type to swear, it most assuredly would've sprung forth that moment.

So I finished eating my lunch, hobbling back to my cave-like room in order to do so. Afterwards, I iced my toe and prayed it wasn't fractured. Turns out it wasn't, just badly bruised and swollen.

Soooo, needless to say, this whole incident has made getting around very interesting to say the least. Unshod I do alright, however where shoes are concerned is another matter. I think I should be healed in another few days, God willing.

This week is also my annual colonoscopy. Joy. The procedure itself isn't so bad... it's the prep. The Jug o' Nasty^TM that I have to drink in order to cleanse myself. Ugh. A day full of eating nothing but clear liquids isn't a laugh riot either. But, it's important and it's only once a year, so I can grin and bear it if I can...

I bought the first season of The Big Bang Theory at Wal-Mart this weekend. It's such a great show...

Well, that's all for now. Signing off.

Birthdays Today: Yuri Gagarin
Russian cosmonaut: the first man to travel in space
b: 1934 - 1968

Well, yesterday not a lot happened to me. I swung by my aunt's because mom had forgotten some things, then I had to get some chicken broth for mom at the store. Then I went home for the rest of the day.

Mom spent most of the day recording things off of the DVR. Basically it was a task she could do while sitting in one place for a long period of time. Also she's been trying to be more disciplined with her Weight Watchers. My aunt said she'd call and check on her from time to time. *titters*


I've been angsting a bit lately, but last night I decided to just let all that's bothering me go and give it to God. It's usually easier said than done, but me worrying over it isn't doing any good whatsoever. I hope it won't be too difficult for me since worrying seems to be imprinted onto my genetic code. -_-

I don't know what today's going to be like. I think I'm going to relax some. Maybe watch some more of my MST3K DVD's that I got for Christmas. See what needs to be done around the place. What I really need to do is work some more on my Dean in Hell story for ATACT. Laziness strikes again.

Trivia of the day: The smallest U.S. state in area, west of the Mississippi River, is Hawaii.