.:reflections of twilight:.

Sorry things have been quiet on the posting front. I kept meaning to, but then I never got around to it.

Anyway, things have been kind of up and down lately. We're still trying to get adjusted to the new merger at work. They are a lot stricter when it comes to a lot of thing and that takes some getting used to. We now have to fill out (what seems like) a ton of paperwork just to request time off. We haven't been divided into cubicles as of yet, but it'll be coming soon I think. Maybe it'll be after I leave, which is in another few months. Maybe once I turn in my notice, I can light a fire and do more packing. My weekends have been pretty scattered lately so I haven't had much of a chance to do more sorting and packing. Mom is getting frustrated because she thinks the place looks like a hoarders house to which I assure her that it doesn't look anything like that. Also, that the boxes will increase the closer it get to when we move.

I'll be visiting my dad and step-mother this weekend for a little while, as in a few days since that's all I can spare due to the fact I have no Personal Time saved up do to the merger. I hope it goes better than last time when I had to leave early due to some disagreements with my step-mother. maybe it will be since it'll be at an actual house and not a cramped RV. I guess we'll have to see...

I had planned on going to a Pow-Wow last weekend that my cousin likes to go to, but mom and I decided to go to a memorial service for a fiend of ours from church and I'm glad we did since we were able to get together with some friends we hadn't seen in a long time and were able to catch up and have lots of fun. It was a good celebration of life.

I may have had a falling out with another close fiend of mine over the weekend. Things have gotten rather strange with her lately. She's been posting all of these rants about being prepared for the Second Coming and how all the Muslims on the planet seem to have a personal blood Jihad against the entirety of the United States. I know some of the more fanatical factions probably do, but the majority of the Muslim people more or less want to live their lives as the rest of us do. She's always been rather conservative in her beliefs, especially after she married her husband, but it was never to this degree. And it's only really been fairly recently too. I may have aggravated things a little by asking a few questions here and there and getting these bizarre tirades in return. I sent her a message on Facebook saying that I don't want whatever may have been done or said to come between us as friends and to try to smooth things over a little. She responded by saying she'd pray for me to have my eyes opened to see the truth that is out there. O...K. I tried leaving neutral responses and stuff, but I haven't heard anything back yet, so I have no idea if I'm on the shit list or not.

She's the one that we'd do a lot of fun stuff with, like game nights and going to the Highland Games and snorkeling and all kinds of things. I miss my fun-loving, adventurous friend. I hope she returns.

Here I am, sitting on a sleeping bag atop my box spring because my umpteenth air mattress developed a massive air bubble which made sleeping pretty difficult. I had tried using another spare air mattress we had which developed a leak that I foolishly thought was fixed, but it took a few DVD episodes of 'That '70's Show' to prove otherwise.

So, since I have to wait a few weeks for my tax refund to come in where I shall be able to buy an actual mattress, I have resorted to the above configuration. This is not the first time I have had to sleep on a box spring. When we first moved down here, we had a bunk bed. Mom took the top mattress for the lower bunk and I had the box spring for the upper bunk. Not too bad, although I was only ten at the time and a lot more durable, so to speak. I do have my egg crate mattress pad underneath the sleeping bag, so that gives a little bit of cushioning. I shall pray for my return to come quickly so I can have an actual mattress again after SEVERAL years.

I am also joyfully involved in more work drama. The best kind!! /sarcasm

Anyhoodle, one of my co-workers is recently pregnant, and I don't know if it's the hormones or what, but she's become rather, well... bitchy. I mean, she's always been one to go off at a moment's notice over anything really. But this is the first one directed at me. Now, when I eat my lunch, I drink out of a plastic skull mug I had gotten for one Halloween one year. I use a skeleton straw to drink from. Sometime I do tend to slurp when I hit bottom, but I try not to do it too often. Last Tuesday, however, I must've done it waaaaay too many times (i.e. ONCE) and set off this particular co-worker. Basically she snapped at me.

Now, I understand that excessive drink slurpage can be cause for annoyance, and I do try not to do it often, but there had to be better ways to deal with the situation than fly off the handle like that. Sending an email, wording it a little more tactfully, ect. Basically it was pretty embarrassing for me since she did it in our office in front of all my other office mates, which I really think was uncalled for. But then, she never was one for discretion.

Now she's not even talking to me. I did apologize for the 'offense' and have even taken to eating my lunch elsewhere so I can slurp in peace if need be. I mean, I didn't think it was THAT big of an offense, but I guess so. I mean, she doesn't even acknowledge me when I greet everyone in the mornings. Whatevs. I'm trying to be Zen about the whole thing, but I flip back and forth between caring and not caring. I think my FIG rates are at an all time low right now.

Thank God I have an ally in there with me. My other co-worker/office mate was out for a few weeks following a neck surgery she had and previously mentioned co-worker was rude to her as well for no real reason. I mean, me I kind of get, but her? I have no clue. There are a bunch of children in there. So me and my ally email each other back and forth in order to have conversations with each other. Hell, no one else in there is talking to us, so we might as well join forces.

My one consolation is that the pregnant co-worker will be out on maternity leave come July, so that's one less stressor I have to worry about. I swear, all of this crap has brought my Anxiety Disorder back with a vengeance. A few times I had to hide in the bathroom in order to stave off a panic attack. Talk about awkward to have at work!

Makes me really look forward to the vacation Mom and I have planned for late October back to Tennessee. I think that is where our hearts truly lie. Now, if only we could get the money to move there permanently, we'd be all set.

Ugh, I wish this whole LJ drama would just end already! I have a few people on my FL threatening to up and leave because of all of this. I think this has all been blown out of proportion. Yes, I can see both points of view, but all the bitching people have been doing is getting a little tiresome. Generally I try to stay out of stuff like this. I can understand if it was like the last time, when there was a general freakout and there were actions before thoughts, but this time it's a tad more thought out. It's more specific rather than general. This has got a few on my FL really worried. To some of us, LJ is a release and a connection to others that we might not have. True, you can probably find the same thing at another blog site, but we've been here too long and know too many people to just pull out now. So I plan on sticking around for awhile.

And that is all I'm saying on the subject...

Today at work wasn't bad. The insurance checks I posted were fairly easy and I could finish them without a lot of additional stress and whatnot. Which is good, because I definitely don't need additional stress.

I'm also officially insured! YUS! I have my shiny new insurance card tucked into my billfold all snug. Hee!

We were supposed to go to a baseball game on Friday night, but by the time it was supposed to start, both mom and I were to tired to care. It seems it went in to 15 innings! We'd have been there all night if we had gone (although we could've easily left at anytime).

Mom is thinking about perhaps going back to school to get a Fine Arts degree in Photography. I wish her the best, but the last time she tried to go back to school, it was kind of a letdown. But this is something she really enjoys, so I hope she can do it!

And a Happy Birthday to pathseeker and pinnacles!! Many more to come I hope!

Word of the Day: wraith
Pronunciation: /rayth/
n : the supposed image or apparition of a person that appears just before or after that person's death; ghost