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snapdragon76
snapdragon76I swear to God, Anxiety is the WORST! My instructor for my Practicum class (who is also my advisor and basically heads up my major), keeps telling me I need to tweak my lesson plan assignment for the last lesson plan I did. It’s not out of malice or obstinance or anything like that, she’s my teacher and she’s trying to teach me things that I’ll need to know for my career. The logical side of my brain understands that. The emotional side of my brain, however, tends to overshadow the logical side, so I get anxious and panicky and all sorts of crap. Then comes the self-doubt and the self-loathing and then my Depression likes to rear its ugly head and it’s just a big ol’ mess. Even with the medication I take, which helps a lot, it can still be overwhelming. So I think I may have dumped a lot of Anxiety onto my instructor with my last email and I’m hoping I didn’t weird her out or anything or give her reason to think I can’t hack it as a librarian. It’s a vicious circle.
Anyway, I’m trying to think of more positive things, like my graduation coming up in a little over a month. My dad is finalizing his plans for coming down, I got my photos from my graduation shoot in the mail and I uploaded them onto my computer and shared them. I will probably print them out on an as needed basis to give to family along with the graduation announcements I plan on ordering in the next few weeks. Plus, I still have my classwork to do over the next few weeks. It’s not as busy as it was when I was doing my Practicum, which is helpful.
I had a Skype interview with the lady who is the liaison for the Knox County Tennessee School District about future openings in the Knoxville area. It’s roughly two hours from here. It went pretty well. Mostly she was asking me about what policies I would use and technology and collection development. She doesn’t do the actual hiring, that’s the job of the principals. However, when I apply for a position there, she can go and tell a principal at a certain school that she spoke with me and she knows I’d be a good fit at that particular school or not. While there are positions opening up in January, I do want to wait until after the school year since I really need to have the time to be able to move to the area and I want to start when the new school year starts instead of in the middle. So, hopefully things will fall into place soon-ish so that if I need to move, we can. Mom said she’d move with me for a year so that I can get settled and then she’d move out on her own. It’s a bit of a scary prospect since I’ve never lived on my own, not even at college where I always had roommates.
We went to the local campus of the VA and took some pictures of the trees and some of the older buildings there. It’s a very nice campus with a lot of character to it. It’s a good place to have a picnic since it has a lot of open spaces as well as some shady spots. I’ll link to my Flickr album where I posted all my pictures at. I also have some from the cemetery from the other day that is on the other side of the VA where the military folks are buried. I may have a few from around our neighborhood as well…
I have other pictures on my profile if you wanna take a gander.
Anyway, I’m trying to think of more positive things, like my graduation coming up in a little over a month. My dad is finalizing his plans for coming down, I got my photos from my graduation shoot in the mail and I uploaded them onto my computer and shared them. I will probably print them out on an as needed basis to give to family along with the graduation announcements I plan on ordering in the next few weeks. Plus, I still have my classwork to do over the next few weeks. It’s not as busy as it was when I was doing my Practicum, which is helpful.
I had a Skype interview with the lady who is the liaison for the Knox County Tennessee School District about future openings in the Knoxville area. It’s roughly two hours from here. It went pretty well. Mostly she was asking me about what policies I would use and technology and collection development. She doesn’t do the actual hiring, that’s the job of the principals. However, when I apply for a position there, she can go and tell a principal at a certain school that she spoke with me and she knows I’d be a good fit at that particular school or not. While there are positions opening up in January, I do want to wait until after the school year since I really need to have the time to be able to move to the area and I want to start when the new school year starts instead of in the middle. So, hopefully things will fall into place soon-ish so that if I need to move, we can. Mom said she’d move with me for a year so that I can get settled and then she’d move out on her own. It’s a bit of a scary prospect since I’ve never lived on my own, not even at college where I always had roommates.
We went to the local campus of the VA and took some pictures of the trees and some of the older buildings there. It’s a very nice campus with a lot of character to it. It’s a good place to have a picnic since it has a lot of open spaces as well as some shady spots. I’ll link to my Flickr album where I posted all my pictures at. I also have some from the cemetery from the other day that is on the other side of the VA where the military folks are buried. I may have a few from around our neighborhood as well…
I have other pictures on my profile if you wanna take a gander.
