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snapdragon76
snapdragon76Trying to type this up while listening to a podcast and people talking is kinda like walking and chewing gum at the same time…
Anyway, onto the point of this entry. I was having a ‘discussion’ (it was through comments on Facebook, so an actual discussion is stretching the definition a bit) with a friend of mine and I think we both came to a similar conclusion: I may actually be asexual.
Now whether this is a ‘result’ of being celibate for so long that I lost interest in sex, I dunno. I’m not sure it quite works that way. Now, granted, I am sexually attracted to other people (guys) and have had crushes now and then, but wanting to throw them down and ravage them… not so much. So it might be from more of an aesthetic point of view.
Now, I’m not saying I’m opposed to having sex (when/if I get married), but if it never happens to me, I’m not gonna be too utterly disappointed about it or anything. Frankly, the idea of sex kinda scares me a little bit. So I tend to avoid it. Never being in a relationship kinda helped in that matter, so there wasn’t any opportunity. But if there had been, I think it would have (and still would) freaked me out.
It actually kinda used to bother me that I never had a boyfriend and that I am still single at 34, but that’s not really the case anymore. I kinda like being single right now and it’s also a case of not missing what you never had. If it comes to a point in my life where I do meet someone and by chance we get married, then so be it. Never say never, you know. But I’m not banking on it at this point.
So maybe I’m semi-asexual? I dunno if there’s a ‘test’ or something to take or not. I’m not really into the label thing anyway…
Anyway, onto the point of this entry. I was having a ‘discussion’ (it was through comments on Facebook, so an actual discussion is stretching the definition a bit) with a friend of mine and I think we both came to a similar conclusion: I may actually be asexual.
Now whether this is a ‘result’ of being celibate for so long that I lost interest in sex, I dunno. I’m not sure it quite works that way. Now, granted, I am sexually attracted to other people (guys) and have had crushes now and then, but wanting to throw them down and ravage them… not so much. So it might be from more of an aesthetic point of view.
Now, I’m not saying I’m opposed to having sex (when/if I get married), but if it never happens to me, I’m not gonna be too utterly disappointed about it or anything. Frankly, the idea of sex kinda scares me a little bit. So I tend to avoid it. Never being in a relationship kinda helped in that matter, so there wasn’t any opportunity. But if there had been, I think it would have (and still would) freaked me out.
It actually kinda used to bother me that I never had a boyfriend and that I am still single at 34, but that’s not really the case anymore. I kinda like being single right now and it’s also a case of not missing what you never had. If it comes to a point in my life where I do meet someone and by chance we get married, then so be it. Never say never, you know. But I’m not banking on it at this point.
So maybe I’m semi-asexual? I dunno if there’s a ‘test’ or something to take or not. I’m not really into the label thing anyway…
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