"The whole world doesn't have to like me, but it would be nice if at least somebody did."

[snapdragon76]

There's some tension in the household as of late. Not between me and my mom, but between me and the lady we're living with... and I have no idea as to why. I noticed it a few days ago. There's a... distance there. She's very open and friendly to my mom, but with me... If I try to start a conversation, I usually only get a one word reply. It's hurtful. I mean, she's one who's been known to hold a grudge and now apparently, she has one against me. I wish she'd tell me what it was I've done... or haven't done. I'm not about to ask her. At the moment, there's nothing much I can do but wait until the end of February when we move out. Until then, I'm going to diminish my presence as much as possible and keep to myself. I'm very good at doing that. I like to avoid confrontation like it was the plague. Hell, I don't even watch TV in the living room any more! I try not to let it get to me, but here are the few moments when it does and I just try to let it pass as much as I can. I feel sometimes I have to watch what I say or do around people because I'm so pertified of offending someone, even inadvertently. I value all of my friendships and I'd hate to do anything to jepordize them.

Anyway, I have quite a bit to do today. I'm washing my sheets and I have to clean the bathroom. I also have to deposit my check today so I can cover my wireless bill. Mom said there was a job fair at her work later on this evening, but I have to go to my grandmothers in order to change into more 'professional' attire in order to go to it.

Only 333 days until the Year 2007.

Trivia of the day: In 1990, the children's classic "My Friend Flicka" was pulled from the optional reading lists for 5th- and 6th-graders in Clay County, Florida, because the book reportedly used objectionable language.

Comments

[flamika.livejournal.com]

Living situations like that can be difficult when someone is acting distant. I totally sympathize, but at least you're moving out soon, right? Anyhow, I hope things get better. *hugs*

[snapdragon76.livejournal.com]

Yeah. They can be. It actually reminds me of the situation between me and my roommate my last semester at school. For some reason, she thought I did something I really didn't and things were very tense. It was hurtful then, too. Mostly because we had been so close before and then I was cut off suddenly and was alone. I coped with it as best I could, but I was glad to get out of there once I graduated.

Strangely enough (and I never would have though of this if I wasn't as obsessed as I am) it reminds me somewhat of what Kureno must feel in regards to Shigure's attidute toward him. Now I feel even more empathy towards him (as if I didn't have enough).

And thank you very much for your support. It means a lot.

[miyabita13.livejournal.com]

I don't like confrontations either, so I can sympathize. *hugs* Hang in there. If you're moving out at the end of Feb. than it's only less than a full month, right? You can do it; you really seem like a strong person to me, so I know that you can get through these hurtful situations.

*hugs again* You're such a wonderful person that I don't like knowing that something's hurting you. I'll pray that the tension eases. Love you, Snap.

[snapdragon76.livejournal.com]

I think the thing that bothers me the most is the fact that I have no idea what the problem is. And of course, I'm too chicken to ask...

I'll be OK. It's only when she's home and I feelit the most is when it bothers methe most. Most ofthe time I'mhome by myself and it isn't apparent.

And thank you so much for your support. It means so much.

[rosehiptea.livejournal.com]

Ugh, I hate stuff like that, having to tiptoe around someone because their angry and you don't know why. It was the story of my life with my dad's roommate. But I got to leave, and at least you're moving too.

"My Friend Flicka" had objectionable language? I don't remember it well enough to say... though I think I was older than fifth grade when I read it. I can't see why they'd pull the book though, but I'm always saying that.

Good luck at the job fair.......

[dracschick.livejournal.com]

Maybe she just had some bad experiences with younger people.

I know your situation. I've experienced things like that in my life.

*hugs*

Hope things work out for you.

take care,
Chris

[soleta-nf.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Maybe you can ask her what's up? Strange that she's so closed up about whatever's going on. It may just be her issues, and nothing you've done/haven't done at all.

[snapdragon76.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it can be hard. Interestingly enough, this is not my first time in Dodge. I was able to handle it then, and I probably can now. I didn't neccesarily like it, but I dealt with it.

Who knows what bee gets in some peoples bonnets. Even though I've never read it, it makes no sense to yank it from the shelves. It borders on censorship.

Re: Good luck at the job fair.......

[snapdragon76.livejournal.com]

Err... I'll get itno the situation with the job fair on my next post...

I don't think that's it. I mean, we got a long great for the majority of my stay here. It's only been recently when things have cooled off.

Even if things don't work out, I'll be moving out in a few weeks, so that's take care of that.

[snapdragon76.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm far too chicken. I hate confrontation. Maybe if I back off, things will settle down some. I don't know for sure.

I think she would've mantioned something to mom if it was something she was dealing with. She's generally very open with her...

[soleta-nf.livejournal.com]

Maybe you could talk to your mom about it, and she can ask or something.

[snapdragon76.livejournal.com]

I have talked to my mom about it and while I'm hoping she does mention something about it, I doubt she will. She's of the philosophy, "It's something you need to work out yourself."

Meanwhile I'm thinking, "Ordinarilly I'd agree, but this time I need intervention!!"

[soleta-nf.livejournal.com]

Too bad she doesn't understand that. :(

[snapdragon76.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Too bad...

Meanwhile, I'm just gonna lay low.