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snapdragon76) wrote2006-12-11 09:15 pm
snapdragon76) wrote2006-12-11 09:15 pm
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Trusting my soul to the ice cream assassin.
I don't know what she means by that line, but then I don't know what she means by a lot of her lyrics...
This job is slowly sucking the soul out of me bit by bit. Today was no exception. It started off fine, but by the end of the day, it hit a massive low point. I think it was due to the fact that I was on messages for the last half of the day, which isn't my favorite job, but I can tolerate it within reason. Of course, today, almost none of the charts that I had to find weren't where they were supposed to be, which meant I had to take time out of my other duties in order to hunt them down and look for them. So I was tense when I left.
Then came the angst. Maybe Dad was partially right. Maybe I do have a mild form of Depression. I mean, most of the time, I'm on a fairly even keel, but there are the few occasions when the thought of shutting myself off from the rest of the world sounds appealing. Just me alone with my books. Books don't give you stress. Books don't argue with you. Books are the perfect companion.
Maybe I'm just tired of not knowing what to do with my life. I mean, I sure as hell don't want to do this forever. I mean, I have a degree, but what good will it really do me? In order to really do anything in the field, you have to have at least a Master's and at this point, it's not gonna happen for me. I don't think I can cope with school at this point anymore. I mean, there's nothing I'm really passionate about that I can make a living from.
OK, 'nough of that.
Saturday I went to do some shopping. I still have some left to do, mostly mom's gift. She's really the only one I have to buy for. That night we went to a Christmas party. It was very nice. We watched the shuttle go off which added a nice highlight to the evening.
Sunday we put the tree up. It's not decorated, but at least it's up. I strung lights around my window which adds a nice touch. That night, we went to the Christmas play that the kids in our church put on. It was pretty cute.
I got a new phone! A pink RAZR. I love it. It's nifty. I wanted to one with the Cherry Blossom design on it, but they were out. My contract was up, so I was able to get one. I upgraded mom's phone to, but not to a RAZR. The only thing is, I can't put my cell phone charms on it.
I actually took my life in my hands and braved the outdoor "mall" in order to go to the bookstore so I could pick up a copy of Furuba 15. I also got Buso Renkin 3 while I was there. The lengths fandom drives a person to.
I went to Wal-Mart to pick up my prescription and while I was there, I saw Hellsing Ultimate, which threw me for a loop, needless to say. I also saw several other DVD's I want there as well...
This job is slowly sucking the soul out of me bit by bit. Today was no exception. It started off fine, but by the end of the day, it hit a massive low point. I think it was due to the fact that I was on messages for the last half of the day, which isn't my favorite job, but I can tolerate it within reason. Of course, today, almost none of the charts that I had to find weren't where they were supposed to be, which meant I had to take time out of my other duties in order to hunt them down and look for them. So I was tense when I left.
Then came the angst. Maybe Dad was partially right. Maybe I do have a mild form of Depression. I mean, most of the time, I'm on a fairly even keel, but there are the few occasions when the thought of shutting myself off from the rest of the world sounds appealing. Just me alone with my books. Books don't give you stress. Books don't argue with you. Books are the perfect companion.
Maybe I'm just tired of not knowing what to do with my life. I mean, I sure as hell don't want to do this forever. I mean, I have a degree, but what good will it really do me? In order to really do anything in the field, you have to have at least a Master's and at this point, it's not gonna happen for me. I don't think I can cope with school at this point anymore. I mean, there's nothing I'm really passionate about that I can make a living from.
OK, 'nough of that.
Saturday I went to do some shopping. I still have some left to do, mostly mom's gift. She's really the only one I have to buy for. That night we went to a Christmas party. It was very nice. We watched the shuttle go off which added a nice highlight to the evening.
Sunday we put the tree up. It's not decorated, but at least it's up. I strung lights around my window which adds a nice touch. That night, we went to the Christmas play that the kids in our church put on. It was pretty cute.
I got a new phone! A pink RAZR. I love it. It's nifty. I wanted to one with the Cherry Blossom design on it, but they were out. My contract was up, so I was able to get one. I upgraded mom's phone to, but not to a RAZR. The only thing is, I can't put my cell phone charms on it.
I actually took my life in my hands and braved the outdoor "mall" in order to go to the bookstore so I could pick up a copy of Furuba 15. I also got Buso Renkin 3 while I was there. The lengths fandom drives a person to.
I went to Wal-Mart to pick up my prescription and while I was there, I saw Hellsing Ultimate, which threw me for a loop, needless to say. I also saw several other DVD's I want there as well...
Trivia of the day: The 1991 "Truth or Dare" documentary about Madonna's 1990 international concert tour was shown in Australia and New Zealand under the title of "In Bed with Madonna.